Saturday, October 10, 2015

Odin

When you stared into my eyes,
my heart shattered with despair
knowing that behind those lenses
a world was slowly fading,
and there was nothing I could do
to have it clutch on for just another moment.

The warmth that I depended on 
from your gaze, turned lifeless,
and my world faded in unison with yours,
as streams of pain tore down my face.
I hopelessly groped for a handle,
for anything to recover my falling faith.

Dolefully, a penetrating permanent void 
scorched through my heart, my mind, my being,
as your breath became dense with despondency,
and mine quickened with melancholy,
the two dancing the last tango between us,
as your view softly shrank into twilight.

I stood, watching your body fall limp,
comforting you to stay with me. 
I tried to be what you have always been for me,
the rock on which I rested, the smile on which I relied,
the optimism in which I believed, the happiness we shared,
I tried to be your everything, since you were everything to me.

Yet as you fell into your unforgiving slumber, 
a grave frozen wind shattered my lungs,
and as I step back into the reality around us,
my heart no longer beats with beatitude,
just carelessly and without reason pulsates
to a world that lost all rhythm.


Odin, I hope that I have given you at least half of the happiness that you gave me by being in my life.  I am so devastated about your early departure from the world and I am beyond heartbroken by it all.  Your spirit and kindness were inspirational, and because of you I have become a better person.  Rest in Peace Odes, you deserve it.

Saturday, April 11, 2015

Candlelight

Nighttime engulfs the town, slowly,
like a blanket gently tossed
atop a sleeping newborn,
leaving the streets barren of people.
In this blackness shines but one house,
antiquated scarlet brick, greeting visitors
with a warm, quaint welcome.
Upon its large window ledge
stands a short, red candle,
fighting mercilessly the darkness
encroaching through the glass.
Her owner sits besides the battleground
of the flickering flame,
in a large brown cushion sofa,
resting a book between her long fingers,
methodically sifting through the novel
until reaching her bookmark,
entirely ignorant of the blackened world
devouring the town.

A cool zephyr caresses her neck,
skeleton chilled by its touch;
yet her mind is not distracted
by the sweeping breeze upon her nap.
She continues her novel;
line by line, finger pressed to the leaf,
bones fractured by the crisp sharpness
of the author's words,
while the candle on the sill
continues to flicker uncontrollably,
struggling to fight the battle
against the devouring nighttime sky.
Her eyes follow the action intently, reading
The blood pours from his stomach,
gasping, captured by climax,
she is focused on the plot
as crimson candle wax slowly drips 
to the wooden stand it rests upon
and she turns the page,
each skeletal finger frozen from anticipation.

She slices her index on the icy crystal slabs,
anxious to unravel the ending.
The protagonist dying on the floor
in a pool of his own liquid vitality,
whimpering behind cowardice
beneath the sword of his adversary;
the candle drowning to his antagonist,
down to nearly nothing,
but a wick of what once was,
dried wax stains the wooden shelf.
An orchestra in her resounds,
screeches of violins and crashes of pianos
echo through the living room,
and she smiles, using the cacophony
as background music for literary war,
the serenade of death for the main character,
hemorrhaging upon the snowy page,
with the candle nearly extinguished.

The sounds swell loudly in her head,
violins dragging bows across their strings
and pianos bashing the ivory
and she, unable to stop reading,
screeches as the lines are processed,
The sword plunges deep within his stomach,
and the silver becomes stained deep red.
A tear forms upon her cheek,
and the candle flame sinks slowly into darkness.
The pitch black covers its invitations,
the window no longer a vision
into the warm living room, lined with stuffed bears,
pillows and blankets on the plush couch.
It has become barren, like the town, 
and her tear, permanently affixed to her skin
by frost, reflects the words she just read.
She followed on his three hundred page journey,
and his final breaths extinguished
within a paragraph of detailed imagery;
she sits in darkness.

Her body, tranquil, replaces the bookmark 
to the new page, and stares into blackness.
She does not flinch, she does not blink,
she sits, quietly, as screams of silence
ricochet off the walls.
After the brief pause, she stretches her legs
and meanders to the kitchen,
grabbing a new match stick and candle.
Striking the head across her knee,
the candle is lit and carried towards 
the window once more, where the old
one is hidden on the fireplace mantle.
She picks up the book,
and continues where she left off;
the blood gathers around his body.
and the candle flickers.

The pages turn, almost automatically,
as the candle dances from left to right,
occasionally hiding beyond the obscurities
of the shadows, only to spark back into place.
The novel's end, rapidly approaches,
the candle struggling to breathe,
and the protagonist lying in the cold solitude,
trapped in the river Styx.
Upon the last leaf she turns, the narrator reads,
A different day, a different battle could have been won,
but this one, a tilt at windmills, left him a broken hero.
The candle eclipsed entirely,
she lifts her body towards the kitchen,
pours a cup of coffee,
and stares at the beige wall in front of her.
The saga concluded abruptly,
blurring the lines of light and dark.

Monday, March 30, 2015

Departure

Ravished - A carnal devouring of my body -
Eyes rolled back displaying a snowy white,
Frostbitten fingers feeling coarsely my skin
Lips with color flushed pressing against mine.
A flood of darkness expands in the gap
between our kiss - warmth escapes our breaths.
A winter most harsh overtaking a summer sun
And my mind flashes frozen to a still beating heart.


Monthly

Our world is monthly - 
Ever changing, inconsistent,
Gone with the wind,
Up and down with the tides,
broken like glass, and 
growing like a tree  -
Salutations and departures
All in one held breath,
Blurted boisterously, 
Whispered humbly,
Rotating schedules of day and night,
Schizophrenia and bipolarity,
Meeting on the line of sanity,
And flipping the calendar page
To December.

Monday, November 17, 2014

Can you blame me?

The journey was long,
but I, ignorant to its failure before inception.
trudged through murky waters,
meandered, lost, in dense woods,
and risked my sanity every footstep.
It started with lies,
bound in thousands of pages
of fairy tales being retold
as if they were authentic.  
So I believed it all, each word kissed
so sweetly that the bitterness of reality 
never hit my lips, until this moment.
Quixotic me believed a shadowed hand
would be stable enough to grasp
as my balance became rattled,
but even the earth knows 
that the sun burns out eventually,
leaving the world a barren wasteland.
My naivete and blindness created 
a paradox of hope and sensibility,
a promise of happiness 
that was quickly realized into melancholy,
and a confidence stricken into fear.
The closer to death I became,
tilting at windmills.

Saturday, October 18, 2014

Warmth

The sun no longer warms my skin
as I lie, weakened, beneath its smile,
pressing its face closer to mine
to kiss it with fiery extinction

No fog appears upon the mirror glass
while my lips press up against it
crushing their power forward 
like a bulldozer, relentless and cold

Movements rigid and uniform 
Bend knee, push forward, slam ground
Switch leg, repeat.  Progress measured
by the steps taken and almost complete.

Voiceless whines of chains and gears
screech behind a vacuous shell,
Metallic clangs of organs dropping
to the feet of a hollowed statue

The sun hides in the wake of the horizon
Piercing with pain through the flesh
That you stripped from me,
When all this time I thought I was human.

Saturday, September 27, 2014

The Day

The sun creeps through the window,
nudging my head, lifting my eyelids,
and stares at me... "wake up."
I roll over on my uncomfortable bed,
which springs me upright to gaze at the wall,
whiter than Antarctic snow, reflecting
the rays of the sun into my already pounding head.
My body feels feeble, lethargic and heavy.
I skip breakfast, because I fail to see the point,
and trudge myself to work, arms akimbo for eight hours,
blankly watching my colleagues and employees,
smiles across their faces, laughs filling the air,
and I feel colder than I did when the sun
rudely crashed its way into my room... "wake up."
I refuse to forgive the sun for that.
Once the clock hands form their joyous vogue,
One on the twelve and the other on the five,
I set a world record in hundred meter hurdles,
leaping people and parked vehicles until I am behind the wheel.
Then I set another world record in waiting;
the traffic, stopped on the highway,
as if there were a broken traffic light stuck on red,
horns freely sounding like a world cup football match,
and air stale, because why would my air conditioner work?
The sun breaks through the windshield... "wake up."
I hate you sun.  Are you going to sleep yet?
The road, like quicksand, steals my time,
and the radio sounds more like nagging than music.
While I pull up, breaks screech at my driveway,
I trip towards the front door, which does not unlock,
frantically pounding to crash through the wood
that stands firmly between me and my comfort.
Finally it becomes ajar and I tackle through
like an NFL linebacker to the inside.
Protected by the roof and blinds, the sun no longer
has nay power against me as I slide into bed
and I lie in his arms...
and it is the best day ever.